Hi. Its me. I just wanted to say this.
I hate goodbyes. Especially at night. I was listening to Pandora. And a live song came on. At the end, the artist (Jeff Buckley) said goodnight and goodbye.
A flood of feelings and memories came. Darkness. Lonliness. Pain. Fear. Anxiety. Hope. Airports. Knowing you are saying goodbye to someone and not knowing when you will say hello again. (I even made a deal with my BFF that we wouldn't say goodbye. Instead.. we say Tacos. Yup. You're jealous. ;))
Im not sure if I'm crazy. I might be. But... Goodbyes aren't fun.
As a child I was obsessed with the Titanic. I knew all about it. And what fascinated me was that those passengers said goodbye and never lived to see the sunrise. They floated through the ice filled ocean and left this earth one by one.
On almost every flight I take or move I make, I think about how maybe it could be the end. Maybe I wont live to see the morning. Or maybe i'll never see my friends again. I always have. And for that I am thankful. But those feelings: Darkness. Lonliness. Pain. Fear. Anxiety. Those are all things I have felt and do feel.
So thats my unconventional post. Its about goodbye.
P.S. I just reread that. It sounds really weird. Oh well. Im posting it anyway. Cause its my muse.
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