Lets just fast forward to May 6th please...

I have 30 pages left of Chris Kyles book.

I am a 1/4 of the way into a library book: The Right Stuff

I started Tribes by Seth Godin

I am 2 chapters into (the amazing) Brene Browns' Daring Greatly.

I am halfway done with My Everest Story.

I am failing Astronomy. FAILING. I doubt I'll pull out anything better than a C. Which might compromise my scholarship at SVU. To which I was accepted and given a 9,000 per year scholarship.

Coach thinks he can get me ready to swim for UT if I train this summer. I would love that more than most things. Except Elevation, Yosemite and NOLS.

I sometimes feel like a failure as a Leadership Coach. Luckily today isn't one of those days. Tomorrow might be.

I am determined to have visible abs by Elevation. Not that anyone will see them. But I need a deadline. 5 weeks seems good enough. I haven't had any "bad" carbs today. Except for a small orange jelly bean.

I want so badly to talk to girls as if they are my wives. Ask them their opinions on things. Ask them if they agree with life decisions I am making *right now* that will probably affect the rest of my life.

I don't have seminary tomorrow. I need to read the BoM cover to cover in a short amount of time. Like a novel. If I read 17 pages a day, i'll be done in 30 days.

Have I mentioned I want a wife, abs and to be training for Pararescue? Ill even back up a little and beg to be on a mission. Please??

Nope. I still have braces and hear I sit in my bed with the sheets askew and junk all over the floor. I am the opposite of authentic and daring right now. I am avoiding the fact that I have a 5% in Astronomy right now. With 4 weeks left on the clock.

And tomorrow I am going to be in a tv commercial all day. Yet another way to distract myself from the pain.

Lets just fast forward to May 6th please….